I can't take it anymore. I have been trying to be strong through everything, but I just don't know how much longer I can try to be strong. I am not happy. My job is stressful and I only get one day off a week in which I do all the cleaning around the house. I do not enjoy working in the retail world. I don't know what kind of job would make me happy. I have been having this problem since college. I am not happy in anything I do. I take career tests to see what I would be good at and it doesn't help. I think about things I could do and then I know I don't want to do them. I am trained in music, but I don't know if I want to do anything with that. I am sick of others having control of my life and what I have to do when I have to do it. It is very frustrating. I want the freedom to do what I want to do when I want to do it. I hate feeling trapped. I don't like having my freedom cut off and feeling stuck in the same monotonous routine. The problem- I can't do anything to fix it. I have no free time to myself to figure anything out. I work Monday through Saturday from Opening to Close at the store and by the time I get home I have no mental or physical energy to get anything done.
Why do I bother even writing this when no one is even reading it?
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