Babies, Babies everywhere but Not a Drop to Drink

Not to sound like Peter Griffin, but do you wanna know what really grinds my gears?  Lately there has been a lot of talk of pregnancy because two couples I work with are expecting babies, a few of my friends have had babies in the past few months, and now another one of my friends is expecting.  I am really excited for all of the people expecting, but I am not ready to have a baby yet.  So what is bothering me you ask?  All the people who keep asking me when am I going to have a baby?  Why aren't you pregnant yet?  or just the plain comment of "You should have a baby now."  I have come up with some retorts to this, but it doesn't stop people from asking those questions.  I finally snapped at one lady at work who told me to just have a baby already.  I said, "If you want me to have a baby so bad, why don't you give me the money to do so?  I certainly can't afford to have a child right now."  She was taken aback.  People on the outside don't seem to remember how expensive children are.  It's not like Jeremy and I don't want to have children, it is just at this point in time we can't afford to with all of our other current bills.  I have partially decided to take the little kid route and tell everyone to "mind your own beeswax!"  If I don't start the conversation with you about what our plan is or anything pertaining to it, what makes you think I want you to know??

Reality Continues to Ruin my Life

I am really starting to realize how corrupt many places are.  The gym I had recently joined with my husband had gypped us out of one of our personal training sessions as well as one of the services they promised to provide.  When we addressed the issue, they treated us like 5 year olds and proceeded to tell us about how we must not have understood the membership.  The person we spoke to proceeded to tell us how our membership was going to be an investment and how things would start to show progress.  Then the man had the nerve to turn to my husband and say he has clearly thinned in his face and he has toned.  My husband was offended, but no more than I could be!  How dare he say that to my husband and make it seem like I have made no progress.  My husband decided right then that we did not want to keep our membership.  When we told the person we were working with he insisted we try to get back into the gym.  My husband said no and the man said he would see what he could do...

Apparently that was nothing!  He called my husband today to tell him that the manager said there was nothing they could do for us.  Jeremy explained that financially we can't afford it right now and he still maintained his point.  I wasn't going to take that.  I called the gym and demanded to speak with the regional manager for the properties.  I was transferred to the lead manager at the property and told them that we literally could not afford the membership and wanted out.  They said they would call me in 15 minutes.... 40 minutes later I called them back.  He said in order to cancel we would need to pay a fee.  So I asked my husband and he said yes and I told them I would be in Thursday to cancel our membership.  I guarantee we will get all sorts of crap for it, but I don't care.  I will find ways to work out elsewhere.  My husband hated going to the gym and I felt like I was lied to continuously by the staff at this gym.  I plan to start saving my money to purchase an arc trainer for at home.  Stupid loser gym.  I hate them all. :-(

Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn!

I have been waking up in the morning to go to work and I have just been dragging and not wanting to get into the car.  I have no drive to go to work anymore because I realize completely that I do not want to be there ever again.  I do have a prospect for next month, but it is not 100% guaranteed.  It also would need to match my current salary which might not happen.  Which could mean me working only part time at the new job while working the old one. UGH!  I am hoping that it doesn't happen, but whatever.  At this point, I don't really care... actually... I don't give a damn.

A little Kindness goes a Long Way

Today I had to deal with one of the most infuriating customer!  She was awful, said awful things to me and about me, and wouldn't listen to anything I had to say.  When she did walk away, she talked smack about me to the group of people she was meeting.  People do realize that the old saying of "You catch more flies with honey than vinegar" is pretty damn close to true right??

After work I came home to set up something that was wrong with my banking info for my student loan.  When I arrived home and loaded up the website something had gone crazy wrong.  All of my past payments had disappeared from my history, it said I was not paying until 2013, and there was a random payment on there.  I immediately called the company because clearly some wires had been crossed.  Again... stupid people are not something I tolerate very well... and the girl who finally answered the phone, after I waited for 10 minutes, was truly gem.  She was awful!  Didn't seem to understand anything I asked, copped an attitude with me which made me cop an attitude, and made me ask for a supervisor.  The supervisor was just as stupid and didn't seem to have any clue about how it could be fixed.  They also said that they wouldn't contact me when it was fixed.  They insisted that I just check back in a week.  Therefore I told them I wouldn't be making a payment until it was fixed.  I didn't need them making a mess of my bank account as well.

One good thing came up during work:  I Had A Great Idea On Fixing a Problem :-)  Yay for positivity in a close to lost day!

Stupid Media Portrayals!

I have to say that I am not a huge fan of the media right now.  It is not a shock to me why girls like myself want to lose a ton of weight.  Girls portrayed by the media are size 2s, have boobs still, and have perfect faces.  When I was in my art class senior year of college I learned about how they make the girls look better on TV by using photo shop.  I am really getting sick of media's portrayals of women.  I have curves and I love them.  I would like to lose some weight to be more healthy, but I do not want to lose so much weight that I become a straight line, a box, or a boy.  I love my curves, and I believe that all women should love their curves for what they are.  I am sorry, but those girls on TV may be gorgeous on the outside... but for all you know they could be rotten and full of mold on the inside.  Everyone should stay true to themselves.  Don't let anyone tell you differently.  You are beautiful.

The Initiator

Ok so I know I already wrote a post today, but I can't keep this one in:

I FEEL LIKE I AM THE ONE WHO IS ALWAYS INITIATING!


I am sick and tired of being the one who has to call the friend, who has to IM the friend, who has to schedule time to hang out, who has to be the one to keep the friendship together!  I feel like I am always the one who tries to create friendships with the people around me.  I try to be there and support the people around me and I get attitude in return.  I know I am not perfect.  Yes I gossip.  Yes I am weird.  Yes I have a different personality.  Why does that mean that I can't try to form friendships?  Why does that mean that people can't try to be my friend?  I am sick of sitting on the couch every night, trying to talk to my friends, getting little to no response, or being left mid conversation.  I am sick of being left alone with no one here.  I know I don't have money to go out places, but all I want is for someone to come sit with me and talk.  Seriously!  GAH!

I am done.

And It Starts...

So lately a lot of things have been going on in my life and I decided that I needed to come up with a way to vent it all out.  There is too much going on at work, home, friends-wise, and a bunch of other places in my life.  I needed an outlet.  So here it is: The Daily Divulge!

I work in a corporate style hotel where a lot of business men and women come through.  I have seen some people who are highly into fashion and you stop and stare because you wish you could dress like them.  Then there was what I saw today.  The first girl walks in and is amazingly high fashion.  She is wearing a tan, soft leather, knee length pencil skirt with a nice white sweater on top, and a pair of nude pumps to match.  She looked flawless.  Her friend came down next and I nearly lost it.  It looked like she was wearing an oversized, lace t-shirt with a long cardigan over it.  The "dress" she was wearing came down to maybe 2 inches below her back side and she clearly didn't seem to care if she bent over with her legs spread apart.  Now don't get me wrong, the girl is very pretty, but the outfit she was wearing was definitely not suited for corporate attire.  As she walked away, she pulled the bottom of her dress up a little and scratched the bottom part of her buttocks.  Now that is a classy gal if I ever saw one...